On Choosing A Body of Desire

Photo by Glow Boudoir

Last Friday, I wrote about cravings and unmet needs. Then I started thinking about where those cravings come from and where they’re pointing. Where are they rooted? Where do they lead us if we choose to satisfy them? Then it hit me. The vibrationals cravings are both rooted in and pointing to the same thing: desire. If you follow my energy work on Facebook, you know I’m a fan of everything Danielle LaPorte writes. She is one of the most profound creators of our time. If you’ve never experienced her writing before, GO. If you have, then chances are you know her body work called The Desire Map. In it, she invites readers to dive into a deeper understanding of how to feel the way they want to feel by identifying Core Desired Feelings (CDFs).

I struggled to figure out my CDFs for over a year. I changed my mind. I waffled. I threw all of them out and decided I just wasn’t built for core desired feelings. Then I made a new list and decided to keep all 35. Then someone made me feel essential in front of a camera. It was fifteen minutes of feeling absolutely necessary, indispensable, and purely myself. True to form, my body recognized that feeling immediately as a CDF. Feeling essential made my soul sing in my body. Several months later, a co-worker said “Hilarie, you’re such a pro” about a job I completed. His statement triggered something. You know that feeling when you have mastery of a skill or knowledge area? That feeling of prowess, even if it’s about how you make toast in the morning? That word rose up inside me. Like any good student, I googled it, sure there were layers of meaning. Turns out prowess means extraordinary ability, exceptional valor, and bravery. The feeling captured in prowess makes my body feel strong and limitless. It’s a resounding yes. Two weeks later, while doodling, I wrote the word molten and it made me melt. Molten brought with it visions of heat, movement, and fiery light. It was love at first feel.

So now I have these words – essential, prowess, molten – coursing through me. Holding them in my mind creates a visceral reaction. I can taste them, smell them. They take shape inside me and expand, inviting me to do the same. I wasn’t expecting core desired feelings that called me to higher ground or produced a feeling of urgency. My expectations don’t stop them from demanding things. They demand creation through decision. They demand burning bridges and building a backbone. They demand showing up fiercely and gracefully in each new moment. They call me to sing and sink into juicy depth. They call me to confront the energy and ecstasy and wounds living within, because I am (and you are) created for desire.

I dare you to let yourself want exactly what you want. Dip your toe in desire. And please, for the love all that’s holy, report back.

Much love,
Hilarie Mae

Want a visual of my CDFs? Check out This Desire of Mine on Pinterest!

One thought on “On Choosing A Body of Desire

  1. Matt Kreinheder says:

    Great one Hilarie. Knowing what drives me has been so helpful when I get low vibrational states. If I can ask myself “what can I be masterful at right now” (Mastery is one of my core drives) then I find the resources to change and overcome. Thanks for putting this out there!

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